Yes all is good! Steve is progressing on with this and there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Has it been easy these last two weeks? Heck no it hasn’t been easy. Steve has been sick pretty much every day since his last treatment and he has lost his mind which makes it even more frustrating to him. Steve’s overall complaint is being sick to his stomach and forgetfulness. Today when Dr. Beck ask how everything went these past two weeks Steve said, “It sucked. I am sick to my stomach and I feel like I am losing my mind. I forget everything and things that only took me a minute to do take me forever.” She explained that it is normal and the best way to control it is not to try and multi-task and make sure he is getting plenty of rest. I asked if this will get better once treatment is over and she did reassure me it will…thank goodness we can’t survive in this world with two of us being mindless. Steve and I were relieved to hear his blood count was good enough for treatment and barely good enough to bypass the Neupogen shot again since he has felt so bad. He even said to me on Monday that he couldn’t believe he has treatment in 2 days because he doesn’t feel like he has recovered from the last dose.
Now I need to mention how much I love and appreciate my husband. He has been a fighter through this whole processes and even when he was feeling terrible he never gave up and has continued to fight and support his family. Steve has yet to miss a day of work due to his condition with the exception of going to treatment. When people ask Steve how he is doing he always says good, regardless of how he is truly feeling on the inside. Why does he do this? Because Steve doesn’t like the attention on him, he doesn’t want to talk about treatment and he definitely tries to keep mind over matter. I know this past month hasn’t been easy and I pretty sure the next month will be tough of him also as he finishes up chemo but I know he can do it. I know at times Steve gets inpatient with the kids and I then feels bad for not having patients with us but I tell him we understand and not to worry about us we are fine and I realize it is just because he is sick of feeling crappy. After all who am I to complain he did put up with my hormones while I was pregnant with the boys and I’m sure there will be another pregnancy he will have to go through again. We love you babe and can’t wait to celebrate with you when this is all done and over with.
XOXO
Angie
LAST CHEMO: Nov 16th
PET Scan: Dec 8th
Radiation: start middle of December
Steve,
ReplyDeleteA big sisters job is to protect her little brother from harms way. I feel helpless not being able to take your pain and suffering away. Your in my every thought and I just wanted to tell you that I love you.
Brandi